Monday, January 30, 2012

somebody like you...

“I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.”-Marilyn Monroe


Some people may frown upon Marilyn Monroe, but I am no one of them. Most days her famous quotes are what keep me going and get my through the days. If I could be anyone for a day I would want to be Marilyn. She, like many other artist and famous people came out of nothing. Marilyn wasn't fake. She wasn't getting a face lift every time you turned around and was, in my opinion, very successful and a great role model. She wasn't a size 0 and anorexic like supermodels are today. She was realistic...

This quote is probably one of my favorites (and mind you I have a billion quotes that I absolutely adore). I am selfish at times. I am the world's worst for putting myself before others unintentionally and until recently I was always insecure and thought I would never be truly happy with myself. I make mistakes on a daily basis. I have the worst luck and am so klutzy I have scars to prove it. Most days I feel out of control, over my limit, and am hard to reason with. I am so stubborn, but I always try to be open minded and handle situations as best as I can. I'm not perfect and no matter how hard I try I never will be. I will never see what others see in me. I will never understand why things happen they way they do. I try to regret nothing, but there are somethings I wish I hadn't done. God gave us one life. Once chance to live it up and live it right. But is there really a "right" way to live life? We all have different risings, different values, different opinions of right and wrong. So who is to say the choices that I am making and the life that I am living is wrong compared to another's?


Here lately I've started to write...I've never really been one to enjoy writing or really look to God or the bible for help in my struggles no matter how big or small. I've started to find that writing relieves so much stress, worries, and makes me feel better in the end. Sometimes I find a solution to all me issues through writing. Sometimes I look back and reread what I've wrote to God or wrote in general and see where something that has happened relates to what I asked God for help with...My favorite verse from the bible (which is really the only one I know by heart) is this: "there are in the end three things that last; faith, hope, and love. But the greatest of these is love" I Corinthians 13:13. I've learned to have faith that life with play out like God has it planned. I hope that something somewhere will get me through my struggles, and no matter what always love. Love your family, love your friends, love life, love God. Just love, because that's what will help you through.

"Every morning you have two choices: continue to sleep with dreams or wake up and chase your dreams. The choice is yours."  What choice will you make? No matter how much I want to lay in bed each morning and dream I find the will to get up and go after what I want. Otherwise you'll never have the opportunity to have what you want. You'll never move forward from the past. You'll never learn. You'll never become who you're supposed to be. And so I'll leave you with this...

"If you don't go after what you want, you'll never have it. If you never ask, the answer is always no. And if you never move forward, you're always in the same place."