"They say it's what you make I say it's up to fate..."

Life is so full of twists and turns
I don't know where that's from.
My demons seem to find me
and new ones are on the run.
Looks, stares, glares...they're all the same
Nothing make sense but they all remain

I am only human
I wear my heart on my sleeve
Like Charlie Brown I live my life.
Simple, plain, enjoyment, then breathe

The heart feels as the lungs breathe
Uncertainty among the air
love, loss, hard, I must confess
my emotions control me never the less.

sometimes in life you just don't know...

         Life has it's way of confusing the hell out of you. It throws your heart and mind for a loop and most days you don't know what to do. People you thought would never walk into your life, walk in and ones you never thought would walk out, walk out...

When those that walk out, walk out there's so many feelings that you have to fight and suffer through to get to the light at the end of the tunnel. Some days I want to forget everything I did and felt but then I remember, if I had never lived the life I chose to live I would've never grown into the woman I have become today. 

It makes us stronger, brighter, wiser, and even teaches us what we do and don't want out of life. We grow and learn. We all hurt, we all live, we all love, we all enjoy. 

And so, as we grow, we learn. As we live we smile, cry, laugh, and love. We learn to accept the things we cannot change and embrace the future. Your love can go unshared and unembrassed. But you learn what's real and what's not. What makes you happy and what doesn't. And then all you are left with are the memories of what use to be...

random time...

Okay, so I'm going to be a little bit of a nerd/geek right now. 

I really miss playing the old Nintendo 64. Playing Super Mario Bros and Duck Hunt was the shit back in the day. Believe it or not I actually enjoy playing video games. Particularly war games or the Mario brothers. 

I really did use to always press the reset button when I got frustrated and knew I was going to loose; which was quite often 

I know it really sucks, but sometimes being in the friend zone isn't really the worst thing in the world. Things will play out how they are meant to be. Maybe it's with that friend you're secretly in love with, maybe not. But everyone needs that one friend they can turn too no matter what is going on in their lives and know that person will be there. Knowing that, that person loves them for who they are and all that they have. So, being stuck in the friend zone, isn't really so bad. I'd rather be someone's friend than someone's nothing at all.

We never know how truly strong we are until we've hit rock bottom and are left to stand alone to pick ourselves back up. It may take several nights of feeling worthless, crying, all alone, before you realize how strong you really are. That you can make it through anything. God wouldn't throw something at you if he knew you couldn't handle it. Use that strength and prove everyone else wrong. That you are that strong woman you are meant to be. Every struggle is a lesson to learn. Only you can determine how hard and how long that struggle is.

Continuing on the "Girl Power" kick, showing the ones that said you weren't good enough is the most gratifying feeling in the world. They said I couldn't do it, I said watch me. Be that fighter you know you are. Surround yourself with people who will only bring you up, not down. Don't try to impress those who don't matter, because those who matter wont mind. 

I have a good friend who believe that people can't change. But we can, we just have to choose too. We have to learn from our downs so we can kick some ass when we're up. My wrongs have taught me so much about life that I could have never been taught in a classroom. Like this picture says, "If you don't fail, you don't learn." If we didn't get some questions wrong on a test we would never be able to say "oh, okay, that's why that answer is correct." Same thing goes for lessons in life. Embrace the wrongs, so you can learn from the rights. 

and so last but not least, I leave you with this. :] 

Respect...

           Here lately I have noticed, for some odd reason, how rude people are on this college campus. I know I can be a bitch at times and piss people off but I tell them the truth whether they like it or not. Apparently some take that as being disrespectful. I can say the most simplest of things and in return I'm told I am being disrespectful. And then when walking and someone runs into me, looks back and glares. You ran into me, but I'm the one who's in the wrong? I just don't get it.
           I know I haven't been having the best of days here lately but still. I don't take it out on everyone. Better yet, I don't take it out or blame anyone. I just don't understand how people on this campus have no respect for themselves or other people as human beings. What is this world coming too? And to think these are the people next in line to run our country? I don't think so. I don't want someone who has no respect for themselves to dress appropriately, speak the truth whether it hurts someone or not, and no respect for anyone else as general human beings in control of what happens with this future country.
           I know I make people mad. I know people don't like me, but at least I am not some stuck up girl wrapped up herself with the mentality that the whole world revolves around me. I tell people the truth. I am straight forward and blunt and some people mistake that as for me being a bitch. Other's just don't like what I have to say and in turn block me out. It just irks me to know end some days. I like to handle things up front, straight forward, and not waste time and energy making things worse than they need to be. If you don't listen to what I have to say, that's your own fault, but don't tell me i'm being disrespectful and defensive when I'm just telling you something. At that point I just stop talking to you and walk away cause I'm wasting my breath and my time.
           I know that not everyone can handle things like I do and I guess that's what frustrates me most. People have their own way of handling things and in turn it complicates things more than it needs to be. No body's perfect, but at least be realistic and have some respect.

Okay, I'm done with my little rant for the day. Hope everyone has a kickass weekend!