When there's no where else to turn...

today has been...interesting to say the least.
my emotions have been on edge ever since this weekend.
of course he would come waltzing back into my life and wrap me around his finger just to keep me on my toes. just to tell me he loves me but now is not a good time. why does he do this to me? why do i keep letting him? we are best friends. well off and on. we have known each other since middle school and now that we finally have the chance to be what we have always wanted to be he is still battling his feelings for another. he is still grieving. he makes me worry and wonder, what makes this time any different? he says the emotions aren't the same as before, but how can they be after all we have put each other through? we've broken each other and others have come along and broken us. when the heart breaks it cannot love the same as it did before but it can still love...he keeps saying if he has another chance with her it would end in marriage. but if that's the case how can you tell me you really love me? i keep thinking that this is it. i've gotten my man, my coastie. but then he throws this curve ball. he keeps flipping back and forth, but can you blame him? i'm the same way when i'm grieving. i just wish there was more i could do, that i could show him what he has before him, show him he's better off without her...