they may come and they may go...

it really sucks how people you held so dear to you don't stay in your life for very long. one minute they're there and the next, they're gone. whether its distance, communication, or other motives they may have had. i've always been one to care too much about the people i value in my life. and no matter what kind of relationship you have with a person, when they're gone, it hurts. all i want is for that person to be happy, no matter how i feel. and in turn that happened, but i got left behind....

it makes me wonder if there's something that i'm doing wrong...i've always said everything happens for a reason and things will play out how God has intended for them to be. i really hate how there are so many different factors that play into friendships and relationships. it seems like at times you're walking on egg shells and others its a smooth path...

i wish people would speak they're mind at that point in time instead of letting things get too far and when you finally confront them about it or why they're being so distant it hits you like a ton of bricks. life would be so much easier that way.

what i was once long ago...

          For some reason instead of studying for exams like every other student on Western's campus, I can't seem but to remember and reflect on my distant past. How people change and who has come and gone out of my life. Things are so different between now and then...In psychology we covered a chapter on child development and how children rationalize and grow mentally. "When I was a child I spoke like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child; but when I became a man I put a way these childish things." 1Corinthians 13:11. It seems as though not only does Jean Piaget's philosophy on cognitive development seem to have been lived and understood, but also that of my religious faith. I have grown so much and have come so far in this life. But not only have I lived and learned, I have seen many people come and go in my life. People I thought I could not live without I am living without. People I once loved, or what my understanding of love was, are just a faded memory...We are at the stage in life where we can either fight to hold onto those childish ways and rationality or we can become the adult we are meant to be. It's hard to find one willing to do that at times. We are all about living life to the fullest and as carefree as can be, but we will never be able to do that unless we live, love, learn, let go, and most of all, grow...sometimes I just wish this was understood by more people. (the childish games get old after a while)